The wound on my wrist.

Earlier this week I saw a bright red scratch on my wrist. 

I didn’t feel when it happened. I noticed it when I went to brush my teeth that evening. 

Two days ago it was really red and pussy. It looked infected. 

I though ‘maybe I should put polysporine on it, and maybe a bandaid. Maybe I should take care of it more.’

I didn’t do anything, I left it. 

As you can see it is healing, slowly. 

My body has the ability to heal. It is doing so many things behind the scenes that I can’t see or feel to repair the wounds. I only notice the progress when there is a large change.

If I bandaged it and taken care of it, it would have sped up the healing. Instead of it looking the way it is now, it would have likely been softer and less scabby and dark pink. It would have healed faster, more smoothly. 

This makes me reflect on the larger physical injuries I’ve sustained. That my body has been through. 

This makes me think of how much I’ve wanted it to heal faster and for the pain to just be gone. 

This makes me think of all the things I didn’t do to help my body heal, but that I left for the body to repair itself. 

This makes me think of all the pressure I put on the body and myself to ‘be better’ without actually taking the steps to help it heal. 

It also makes me think of all the wounds stored in my body that I can’t see. All the experiences that have left a mark on me. How many of these wounds I’ve left open, asked for them to heal, without actually putting any work into addressing them and giving them the optimal conditions for healing. 

The tools and techniques we use to heal a bone injury and a muscle injury and a digestive issue and a flesh wound are all different.

The same goes for the injuries and wounds that we cannot see and have sustained to our psyche, emotional systems, nervous system, and souls. 

This one small wound on my wrist, is reflecting to me in how much I don’t help myself and take care of myself, how much is going on beyond what I can see, how amazing and beautiful and magical my body is - it literally knows what to do to heal itself and all I have to do is trust it and support it, how many hurts and wounds I hold onto inside that I can allow to heal now, to support heal that which I cannot see I can engage in tools and techniques that will support the healing and stop perpetuating the suffering.