Creating.

Sometimes these posts come easy to me and sometimes it feels a little harder. Like I’m trying to pull something out of me that’s not there.

Sometimes I wait it out and see if anything appears.

Other times I leave it and go to something else.

Never do I force it.

Creating doesn’t work through force, it works through flow.

Creating to me, is bringing something to life. It happens when it happens. Sometimes it comes all at once and other times it comes piece by piece.

I create from a place of feeling. The materials tell me what they want to be and they also tell me when it’s complete.

Sometimes I don’t have the skills to create what is being asked to be created. In these instances I slowly work up to learning these skills. I’ve been learning some of these skills for over two years now and they’re still not where they need to be in order for me to create what I feel and see wants to be created. I exercise patience in these moments. Things usually come together at some point.

Sometimes, I start with an idea for a piece and then I stop. That piece turns into something else later or pieces of that peace turn into something else later.

Creating for me is trusting. Creating is learning to be with what is and doing for the sake of doing. There is no goal, no purpose, no end game for the pieces.

When I create the human part of me judges and decides whether it’s good or not. I am humbly reminded that it is not my role to judge and decide what these pieces are and are not. It’s my role to create them and release them. Whatever happens after that happens.

Creating for me is freedom. Creating for me is connection.