The Way of the Feminine.

For a while now, I’ve been actively cultivating and following the feminine energy within me. When I was first drawn towards women doing this work, I was equally intrigued and repulsed.

There is no denying that the feminine energy lives through me. I’ve dreamt about living from a place of being for ages. Now it’s becoming a reality.

For me, following this energy feels scary. It also feels so right and true in my body. I’m shedding layers upon layers of conditioning. I’m revealing more parts of myself to myself and the world. I feel less shame about being a woman.

Today, I tried to go back to the way things were. I tried to get off the path of the feminine and go back to the way things were. My teacher saw this, without me having to say anything. That’s why she’s my teacher. That’s how strong the energy is. She was right. She saw me trying to bail and she wasn’t about to bring me back. That is my work.

It’s clear that this is the way I’m going. So here it goes. Here are some things that I don’t want anyone to see or hear or know about me:

I talk to nature, or rather nature talks to me. I connect deeply with it and feel it coursing through my body.

I feel when something is not true. When people talk and tell me things, when I see people displaying behaviours that aren’t based in truth, and when someone is trying to explain something to me that just simply isn’t true.

I create a lot. I have a lot of creative energy.

Desires flow through me. They are unique to me and they usually bring up all the stuff I don’t want to look at.

I’m soft and open.

Most days I ‘do’ very little.

I’m not sure what this way has in store for me, yet it feels so true to follow it.

A thank you to my teacher for calling me out on my stuff today.