Rent is due in 3 days and I don’t have the money in my account to pay it.

In November 2021 I quit my full time job, thinking I would have the space to finish my thesis for my Master’s Program and spend the rest of the time taking care of myself.

My health was in the tank at that time, and it had been for years at that point. I was doing all I knew how to heal myself and also live everyday. It was the most challenging thing I experienced to date.

Well, the universe had other plans for me. I did not work on my Thesis. I actually haven’t picked it up again and don’t know if I ever will. We shall see on that.

I spent so much time alone & healing more. I was in so much pain and dealing with that on a daily basis, with nothing to distract me, was brutal to say the least. I would not wish it upon anyone.

And I am sorry to all the people that are currently experiencing extreme levels of pain, not knowing if they will ever feel any different or better or if there is any relief at all, on the horizon. It is a VERY tough spot to be in.

During a lot of this time I did not work or bring in much money. It was not in the cards for me.

In July 2024… almost 3 years after I quit my full time job, I am now starting to work on a consistent basis again. And let me tell you, it feels really good for me. I love making money and spending money. For me it is not about status, but I feel soooo good when I can fully take care of myself in the ways I enjoy. I love feeling the ease and flow that comes with the energy of money in my life.

This month was the first month I broke even entirely. Not counting the debt I have taken on to pay off what I borrowed while I was deep in my health journey.

And let me tell you, it feels amazing. But I also don’t have the money I need for my rent this upcoming month.

I have savings/cash on hand for that reason. No matter how much debt I take on, I make sure I have a little cash reserved for this. I also know money is coming in shortly after the first of the month, so that my reserves will be replenished fairly quickly.

I’m curious if next month I’ll have enough cash generated in order to pay my rent month without dipping into savings first. We shall see.