Here I am.

Starting isn’t easy.

Here I am, starting a business for 2+ years. Enlisting Business coaches, learning about strategy and Marketing and Sales and all of the things. All this knowledge and learning is helpful. The space where stuff starts to happen though is moving from learning to action. Or from consuming to creating. It sounds simple, right?

When I started to face the reality of publishing my work and allowing all the people in the world who want to see it actually see it, I froze. I found ways to postpone the launch “I’m not ready” “I don’t have everything I need” “If I do just this one last thing, I’ll be good to go then.” Truth is, all of these things were decoys. They were distractions. They were ways I was avoiding the discomfort of going for it. Doing the thing. Sitting in discomfort. Opening myself up to whatever was to come (the vast uncertainty of what might come).

I’m in this part of my journey, where I’m allowing things to unfold around me. I’m facing my reality of what is real and true for me right now. I haven’t found a stable place and I realized I was looking for this stable place in order for me to take action. I’m realizing that there is no such thing for me. I am aware of the ever-changing world around me and in me. I trust that I’ll take the actions that I need to at any given time. I have the knowledge and the skills and the resourcefulness and support that I need to move forward.

The one thing I didn’t have and that I could not learn from anyone else was the belief and trust in myself and following what is real and true for me. The confidence to handle whatever was to come. Other people believed in me more than I believed in myself. I’m starting to see all of the things in me that they already did.

So here I am.

People, especially in business prefer things to be in neat little packages. They like to be told exactly what they are buying and investing money in. They like to ‘know’ and ‘understand.’ They like to be ‘sold’ on what they are buying. I relate to this because I used to be one of those people. This thing here, that I am creating, may not satisfy people’s need for order, cleanliness, the logical explanation or trail. What this thing is is organic, it started a long time ago, it’s blooming, it will morph and change and be exactly all that it is, at the time that it is. It will eternally be a work of progress until it feels complete.

As I go through my journey of life, I hold space for people going through their journeys of life. If you are interested in working with me contact me here. You don’t need a logical explanation of why you want to work with me. Give me a shout if you feel it.