The bread crumb trail.
Yesterday, I went for my first ever acupuncture appointment. The experience was so fulfilling and amazing. The doctor studied and practiced both Western and Eastern medicine and has a practical and integrated approach to treatment in healing. I felt so much gratitude toward this human being.
The acupuncture itself was a painful experience and one I would have rather not experienced at the time, yet the benefits of the treatment surpass the painful sensations I experienced during. I don’t want to talk about the experience right now, as much as I want to share the story of how I landed in this man’s office.
I followed the bread crumb trail.
It started with buying a deep red bathing suit in November 2020. I felt pulled towards it - something telling me “let’s buy a bathing suit”. It was more of a feeling than a thought. Then I thought to myself why the heck do I need a bathing suit right now? It’s the middle of a pandemic and I don’t see myself swimming anytime soon.
This past winter season was a season of deep rest for me and I ended up resting at the spa several times. I kept finding myself in hot tubs and being drawn into even deeper rest. I’ve been dreaming to go to the spa with hot and cold pools and massage therapists forever, so on my birthday I went (adhering to COVID restrictions and health guidelines).
My massage therapist on that day was amazing. She gave me several recommendations based on what she felt in my body. What she felt aligned with what I felt. I didn’t end up following up on her recommendations.
Two months later, I felt the call to sink even deeper into rest. The third breadcrumb. So much deep rest - to book three days away and completely rest during those days. Oh yea, and book another massage session with the same woman.
At this second session, she gave me the recommendation to this doctor that practiced acupuncture. She told me that her and her colleagues would travel two hours into the city to see him and she wished he had an office closer to where she lived. I joked with her because I travelled two hours to go see her.
Some time passed and then one day I felt the same feeling in me, that I call the bread crumb. I randomly picked up the phone and called to make an appointment with the recommended acupuncturist (is that what you call them?). Anyway, I was expecting to get an appointment within a week and the woman said he’s booked up for a month. So I made an appointment for the date and time he was available.
In all the treatment I’ve participated in, I’ve been resistant to acupuncture. There’s a part of me that is still resistant to it, yet by following this trail of breadcrumbs and continually trusting that this is what I need to do right now, I’ve landed in the hands of a doctor that gave me further insight into how my body works and what steps I can do to take care of myself a little more and have life feel a little more enjoyable for me.
Sometimes, I get stuck in this idea that life needs to look a certain way and has specific steps to follow. Sometimes I don’t listen to this thing that I feel inside of me and I don’t follow the bread crumbs. Then I have experiences like this, where no matter how crazy the ideas sound to my mind, I listen to that thing inside me and one thing leads to another and it all works out, feels easy, and is exactly what I need in my life at this time. Also, everyone I meet and that were part of these experiences are such beautiful souls.
I’m not sure whether this bread crumb trail will continue or whether this is where it stops. I’m going to keep listening though.