Honesty

Honesty with self and others.

I’ve had the experience in life where it is sometimes really confronting to be honest with ourselves. To see and feel what is for us right now, what is possible, what is needed.

Even though it is often confronting, it is where the evolution, shift and changes start.

In my journey, when I had moments of honesty of ‘I am in a lot of pain.’ ‘This isn’t going to resolve on it’s own.’ ‘This f***ing hurts.’ ‘I can’t move enough to cook myself enough food for the day.’ These things that came up were really hard to look at, and to feel. There was a lot of grief.

But once I was really honest with myself and stopped putting off looking at the pain, and looking at it right on, there came clarity of what I needed, what the next step was for my recovery, who I needed to ask for help. Once I was willing to see, there came a clarity.

Today, I had an experience with someone I know who I’m in a complex situation in where there are no right answers or ways to be. In response to a message they sent, I was honest. I said exactly how I felt and where I was at in the moment and that honesty cut through all the other stuff that was happening. It brought clarity to the interaction.

Honesty isn’t always the easiest thing in the moment, but in my experience it brings clarity with it and really grounds us in the current reality.

There might be more to write on this later, but for now, this is what is here today.

With love,